Hearing that he has a crush on her isn’t making me feel jealous, for once, and that is so exciting. c; I like the feeling of being “over” someone, and being able to try to give advice without secretly mentally saboting. I never sabotaged, but still, I’ve wanted to.
I appreciate his help, and I hope this is the start of a beautiful, only-friends friendship. c;
Especially since I told him about something I shouldn’t have. >x< Great with secrets other people trust me with, terrible with my own; story of my life.
“I don’t know if you’ve ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That’s why I’m trying not to think. I just want it all to stop spinning.”—The Perks of Being a Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky (via thechocolatebrigade)